Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Cordell

sitting here thinking

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 04:41:38 GMT

well,here i sit at my computer thinking about everything and everyone in my life right now...i wish i had a closer rel. with my father and brother and sisters and just my father side of the family in general, just feel like a part of me is missing sometimes..my friends are ok right now, i wish i just could look at one of them and say, "yes, you are my best friend" but honestly i cant say that about any of them or anyone right now really...I mean i do have some people who are close to me in some ways but i want someone that i know i can count on 100 percent of the time...i need to be more focused on school again and i just need to read more..i miss the times where i would just get up and read and journal i hope to get back into that soon...well this is short update but its something...have a good night kids...later

Updating what a great feeling

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 22:38:28 GMT

Well, its been some time for me to be on here doing this whole updating thing...So, i guess ill catch you with what's new with me..
1.i am a 5th year sr.
2.i am the radio stataion manager again
3.i am still in alpha phi chi but now im just the founding father(and that's ok with me...i think)
4.i just(like today)got an internship at otter creek coc..that's so very awesome by the way
5. i have the best lil brother ever in the club...his name is Jonathan Monroe..this guy is very cool and im gald he is my lil brother..no lie
6. i might be getting fried from ruby tuesday cause i was suppose to go work tonight and im not going cause i thought i said i need off but i guess i didnt make that early so i might need to find a new job somewhere else....
7. rudy tuesday just called again right now...this sucks a duck
Well, of course i have more to tell but this should get us started on a good foot...have a great day and ill be posting more soon.....later players

"Updating".....man, i update all the time

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 21:32:17 GMT

so yeah i have not been on here in a long ass time and iknow that's kind of sad to the one or two of you that acutally read this and there might be few random people checking it out too....but anyway, i my life has been this German Class, Ruby Tuesday, and hanging out with my alright friends...so yeah summer rocks! oh wait, maybe it doesnt rock so much...oh well... i have meet some new people in these few mo. so very cool some not so cool and some that are in between...i have a some hook ups or somthing of that nature...some good, some bad, some real bad, and some that have been ok...wait what am i talking about i dont have hook ups i can hardly get a date...so yeah after you are done laughing i will say that i have more tell at a later date and hopefully now that my class is over i will be able to update more...later

...........

Mon, 24 May 2004 23:59:20 GMT

Today:
1.awaken by good friend and equal Dereak
2.Went to Sears to get car fixed and had to walk in the mall for hours and was reminded of middle school and L.L.Bean book bags
3.Went to Best Buy looked at video cams cause my other got stolen a while back
4.Came home and meet up with russ and jennifer and went to Tower and got the new guster cd/dvd
5. came home talked to Dereak for a while
6.now im going to eat with Kelli at TGIfriday's

Today was a good day for the most part...it was spent alone for the most part but that's cool...hopefully soon i will be hanging out with my new bff and that will be fun cause i think we could talk for hours and hours.....so yeah life is ok right now...later
PC

What a life....

Mon, 17 May 2004 20:06:00 GMT

Well, here i sit at the desk that is paint black with tons of stuff on it that should be thrown away but due to the fact that i am lazy and have not real motivation to clean.....These days have been very crazy, with meeting new people and some being cool while others walk all over my heart and feeling but hey that's the life i live i guess.Today i will be sitting at home alone as usually looking at tv and thinking about things that i could be doing. Tonight i might go out with Ryan F. to Tin Roof and but then again tonight is the season finally of RW/RR Challenge on MTV so i might just stay in a watch it with the people i call my friends right now. I am working most of the time now at Ruby Tuesday in Brentwood. The people there are nice and fun to work with for the most part...as in most jobs you will have those you can't really stand all the much but its cool none the less. My dating life is at a low and think that i might just be single all my life and i guess its time for me to get to use to this fact and stop trying to change things cause its not going to happen. I think that i might start reading again because i have nothing else do i might as well read and help my mind grow in some way....I always wonder what it would be like to move to another city where no one knows me and ideally start over again...and yes i know that most people have these thoughts but at the same time most of them never do anything about it, they just say it and move on while i am really thinking about it now... I have now been in TN for the past 22 years of my life and what do i have to show for it...a few semi-close friends and a pair of clean underwear...wow.....My writing skills are like that of a fifth grader which is awesome seeing how i am a 5th sr. in college...that i was random, oh well. I guess i have vent a enough for now..later
PC

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 06:43:38 GMT

soon...soon....

I'm back and ready for action

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 14:26:54 GMT

Well i have been gone out the USA for about a 10 ten days....you might ask where did i go and to answer that question i went to Honduras...and to those of you who like where is Honduras? It is in Central America(i am sure that i have misspelled "America" but hey i dont really care..I just wanted to stop in and and say to that i will be posting again and you all can go to sleep now cause i know you have been worried about little ole me...Later
P

Is That Right....

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 20:54:31 GMT

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Your mate is communicative, thoughtful and caring.
Though he/she can be tactless and rude and
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intellectual experience of sex.

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One Day down...39 more to go

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 06:47:02 GMT

Well, today is the 1st day of no IM...i must say this will be one of the hardest things i have ever did...i dont know why because when i was in high school i didnt even have a computer or could i type either...But i think i will be able to do it. Today was a an ok day...i was pretty tried the whole day..i was asleep in most of my class becuase i was up til like 3am doing nothing at all when i should have been doing some hw or reading...i have become such a slacker in a lot of ways..i need to get over this hump soon cause my grade will start to stuffer soon if i dont...One reason that i got home so late was because i had Singarama parc. and afterwards we went to Sunset Grill and ate and tried to talk about a name for our show...which we did not do becuase we just enjoyed talking to each to other more...i took a nap today and it was much need and i feel like a new person now and that's good because i think i was running on low which is never good...After the nap i went to ruby tuesday's in brentwood and a got my job back so that is good now i have a way of getting money again...i must say that the Lord took care of me on that one....i think the best thing i hread all day was something one of my teachers said (Dr. Lee Camp)....in class he says, "Stop Taking yourself so Damn seriously." and that really hit home because i think that i am too often do that and get mad and dumb stuff and hold to many things over some people's head and i need to focus more on being a happy and showing kindness, love, and mercy to others and myself..well, that's all i have for now. later
PC

Today

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 06:57:53 GMT

well i have clean the room and i am kind of tried so yeah...i had a day..man, this entry sucks a duck..oh well...ill just put a bunch of "...." and everything will be cool right? later

These Days......

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 00:27:32 GMT

Well, its been sometime for me to update this thing...but there has been much going on. I have singarama prac. and club stuff and the drama with the job now...As far as the job goes i am now "fired" i guess because i could not come into work one day and i had someone to work for me and stuff so hopefully things will come out for the best...Singarama is going well althought i have come to the concluison that some people just can not dance at all not even a little.Oh well. Today was a good day..i had class and i took a bible test and bombed it badly..but i am not to worried it was only the 1st test we have had.I think i am getting in a better mood now things where kind of bad for a few days but i see the light at the end of road...For lint i think i might give up im for 40 days..i am still thinking about it...give some feed back guys and ladies if any ladies even read this stuff. later
PC

Coming Back

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 22:50:55 GMT

Things are getting better...more to tell soon. later
PC

Happy V Day

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 23:22:19 GMT

Well...let me think
i lost my job today
i dont have any one speacial to spend the day of love with
i am behind in all my classes
i have had my hreat broken yet again
i am not the happiest kid right now
i am cold
i am tried
i have a life that means nothing

Well i guess that's all the more reason to get drunk and have lots of sex....see ya
Patrick

Life and Love

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 06:26:32 GMT

Life....sucks
Love....sucks
Life.....oh yeah it still sucks
Love......i think you get the point by now
The days have not been good...i hope they get better soon cause i dont know how much more i can take.
later

The Weekend

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 23:45:46 GMT

I was in FL.......It was cold......I am back......the end.

who am i....Cordell or Patrick, only time will tell..

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 05:51:47 GMT

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Your Favorite Band/Song	Ludacris - Rollout
You Like To Read:	Romance novels
You Firmly Believe In:	Love at first sight
Everyone Thinks You Are:	A complete loser
You Were Conceived:	Next to a fireplace
You Will Marry:	Your current boy/girlfriend

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Thu, 29 Jan 2004 05:49:11 GMT

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Your Name
You Are A:	Emo Boy/Girl
Your Favorite Band/Song	Marilyn Manson - Dope Show
You Like To Read:	Horror books
You Firmly Believe In:	Free love
Everyone Thinks You Are:	You don't have any friends
You Were Conceived:	Next to a fireplace
You Will Marry:	An Italian plumber

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"Your Boyfriend Hates Me"

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 20:31:54 GMT

first off, if you read this awesome Journal of mine i want you to know that its cool with me if you leave a comment or two......On to the meat of this here meal, today was an alright day i must say, nothing important happen which is not a bad thing. today might be a busy day i plan to see a moive (big fish), go to chruch, go to singarama parc., read of school related material, do the radio show of mine, hang out at the house, and go to bed and eat somwhere within all of that. I have an feeling of peace right now, i think i might be back on track i feel good about me and all the things in my life. i want to just go out and live life, you know. I want to be the friend that i use to be. i want to make people laugh and smile like i use to. i just want to be me again. for while i have been in this strange and werid mood, where i didnt care about anyone or what they thought of me and i think i still have a little of that in me still but i feel like i am coming out of it and i want to be that guy that i use to be he was a pretty cool and nice guy. i dont know i want to write more but i have to leave. so to end this chapter, remember that you are loved by someone, never forget that. im out like a white dress after labor day.

Cold Days are near.....

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 22:07:35 GMT

Well, today was day...i woke up late and had to run to UB to lead singing. I ran with my shoes untied, my shirt not fixed and dirting cause i did not have time to shower. I showed up just in time maybe few min. late, i still had morning voice and sleep in my eye. But like most cases i did what i had to do and was not as bad as i thought it would be.Classes where ok but, nothing speical i have to tell my life story on thrus. that should be real fun,sad, and funny all at the same time cause i have had one crazy life. Tonight is the big Basketball game against Blemount or however you spell thier name. i will be in attendance and trying to look all cool in the process. Today we got some sown that's always fun and cool to look at. i have been looking for someone speical to come into my life. and yes i meet a lot of people but i want someone i can love on and take care of(Kind of) and the reason i say kind of is because i also dont want them to take control of my life cause i like to do what i want to do sometimes, but at the same time i want someone i can talk to anytime and just vent too. cause right now i am the one that most people vent too and that's not bad becuase i like to be there for people but i just think its time for someone to be there for me. i dont know....anyway, i must work on this radio crap, and do some other work. Maybe ill look at a movie that would be fun. alright, im off kids..thanks for reading this chapter in the life of cordell. pop, lock and im out.

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Mon, 26 Jan 2004 05:46:39 GMT

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Wed, 21 Jan 2004 23:50:53 GMT

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"Rock Your Body"

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 23:38:31 GMT

Well, here i sit on a cold and dark Wed. i sit here and think to myself how tried i become trying to be "Patrick Chappell"...for those of you who don't know me that well..at school i am manager of the radio and tv station, i am singer in UB and Chapel, i am small group leader on Friday's, i am President of an all guys service club, which now has 70 or so members and growing, i work at Ruby Tuesday,and i guess i am fairly know person on campus. So as you can tell i have to deal with a lot of people everyday of my life and sometimes i just want to go and be alone and hide where noone can find, as i often do sometimes. People wonder sometimes why i go to the movies byself sometimes and i tell that i like and they are like werid. Well when you have to deal with so many people as i do you start to enjoy moments alone. But i guess that is more than some you wanted to know and i am sorry for that..anyway, a radio meeting tonight and tv show meeting and then after that i have an singarama meeting, then i will try and do some school work of some type and then look at tv, followed by talking online...man my life rocks hard core. Well i hope that each of you that reads this has a good night and dont't forget kids only you can stop forrest fires. later

Oh Sunday, My Sunday.....

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 17:50:49 GMT

Well, here i am sitting here writing in this journal of mine.Right now i should be work but someone need to work more than I so said hey take my shift buddy. So now i sit here talking to a friend of mine who seems to be pretty cool right now. Today i might go see The Thrills at tower and what not but i am unsure or i might have metting with Kelly about Singarama, so yea...I think to myself sometimes that i will be single for the rest of my life, i dont really want that i would like to have someone to care for, someone to love on and buy stuff for, i guess the older i get the more i feel this way...maybe i will find somone soon that would be nice but if not i guess i will have to deal with it. Classes will not be that hard i don't think eventhought i have a lot of papers and what not to write this time around i think i can keep my head above water. Last night was pretty uneventful for the most part i worked and made about 55 dollars and then i came home and looked at tv for a while, talked online and went to sleep. I kind of wanted to go out but all my roomies are kind of sticks in the mudd sometimes and that really gets to me cause im like hey let's go do something and they are like yeah man but then when i put something out ther for us to do they are like "no, we dont want to do that".....so i have to deal with that crap all the time and usually end up going out by myself, which is fine but it would be nice to find people who actually like to do stuff. Oh well. I guess i will jet out of here for now...take care young people of the world and like always i am out like a fat girl in softball....

First Week

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 22:10:14 GMT

well, I just got done witht he first week of classes and looking at what i have the semster should not be that bad but then again i say this now and by the end of it all ill be like "This semster sucks, i quite school, ect., ect." The club is looking pretty good this semster i have high hopes and think things will be running a little better....I am still single(hold the laughs til the end of the entry, thank you.).....i go work tomm. i am actually gald about this cause i like to make money and i like to spend it.....Tonight, i might go eat somewhere and i might go see either Big Fish or Alone came Polly, then i might go to a fiends house a look at another movie about guns and what not called Blowing for you know what...My hand is cold and so i my heart..j/k. Well i guess i am going to end this great journal of mine for the day. i hope that each of you who reads this thing have a good weekend and a happy new year(wait i can't say that happy new year crap anymore, oh well.) until we meet again i am out like a fat boy in baseball...yeah

Brithday Time

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 22:10:54 GMT

Well, today is my Bday and i am happy i guess...its good to trun a year older in some ways and in others its not. I dont what i will do the rest of the day hopefully something fun but who knows. My mom, aunt, and Godmother called me today which was good..but my Father on the other hand as not called nor will he i dont think. And that's cool but it kind of makes me sad cause i wish i had him in my life but he is not and i am dealing with that. Right now i am talking online..something i do often and i am talking to Josh a good friend of mine who enjoy talking to...so big up to Josh right now. I think i might go to the mall or somthing and walk around cause i got nothing better to do on my Bday.Maybe ill buy a dvd or some pants or even a blow up doll, who knows i am one crazy kid...But for real i think i might go do somthing. Well thanks to all who read this speaical BDay entry...I am out like a fat kid in softball